In our Christian propriety, we shrink from saying we need something. I know in reading Lewis’s breakdown of terms between Gift and Need love that I wanted to squelch the idea that I need love. However, in Genesis, God does say that “it is not good for man to be alone.” Many times, this is used in referring to a marriage between a man and a women. That is true but it is not selfish to want to seek out my own company, to be with my kind of friends. I need that every now and again. This desire does not make me selfish; rather, it proves my normality by showing up in my life as a desire. It is the abnormality, Lewis says, to desire to be alone.
More than I need my friends, I need my God. Unlike a friend who at times maybe be inconvenienced by my desire to spend time with him, God never is. My love for God is never disinterested. I always have a need of Him, of His righteousness for my penitence, His grace for my weakness. The beauty is, this is what God wants. He asks for it. In the Old Testament, He says, “Open your mouth wide and I will fill it.” Two words jump out of that phrase. The first word is the word wide. Make room, I am going to bless you, says God. The second word is fill. Not just a small quantity but full and to the brim. Yet all this is contingent of me opening first my mouth, preparing myself, to receive His blessing. I need to do my part and prepare for His giving. I do that by recognizing my need of Him. For myself, a growing question in my mind is my love for God. Is it where it ought to be? Do I love Him like I ought, not necessarily for saving me, although that is nice, but for what He does for me and for helping me live above my carnal self? How passionate am I really? I think what Lewis says may be the first place to examine myself. Am I prepared to receive? Have I recognized my need for God so when He does meet my need, I can love Him for what He gives to meet my need?
(pulled from a response paper to the writings of C. S. Lewis)